Friday, July 20, 2007
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today sch is fine, beatrice & galfriend tease me again... said tt i step on so many boat, i never okey ! i am realli confused, twins & galfriend & steven said move the first step like go talk 2 him but kor said tt guys should make the first move tt i think is quite rite but i realli miss him :( so afternoon he on9 & i talk 2 him but he onli reply me "fine,okey" & no more then later worse not even a reply... i felt upset then when 2 have a nap, while i sleep my eyes went red & tears were dropping down... i am really upset, then after i cried... my buddy sms me & said tt he dont want 2 love anymore till he feel better which will take quite long... & make me felt even more upset, but i reply him as like i am alright... is like a cut on my heart & is bleeding like hell ! then i force myself 2 take a nap, i slept abt 2hours then i woke up & saw kor on9... he talk 2 me but i never told him abt this cus later he dont like it... i shall keep all this 2 myself & the cut in my heart will never stop bleeding, i feel like crying out loud... kor make me happy 4 awhile then he went 2 play soccer & i rmb tt thing again... & started feeling lonely ! kor & i got a tree name "vermingrace"... a tree 4 both of us 2 do or spent time there, i shall post the pic of it later... i got nothing 2 do so i went 2 find out wat is mr.wong's son name & his son name Melvin wong ... but not interested 2 know him more... i dont want 2 know guys anymore, when guys r wif u. they really can lighten or brighten my days but when they start leaving or avoid me, the feeling is terrible ! where is Trung or my Horny Guy, he can help me. i want him now! i can lean & trust him... when the hell he coming back 2 singapore! hmm, talk 2 big kid abt how i felt she is so kind... i love my Big kid ! hahaha :D i promised i wont be sad but crying in my heart... haha good news, Javier is cutting down on smoking becus of me... hope tt he could totally quit smoking, he is going 2 ngee ann ploy after NS... xD hope tt he got a bright future ! kor, y he pissed off again ? :( always at nite tell me he upset tt make me sad too! :[ okey, i gtg now... i really hope my buddy can think & be happier soon... i dont want him 2 be sad ! ;) SMILE ppl ! bye bye...ohh yeah, my "vermingrace" this is the pic of it...
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